Okay, Once again I have been shown that life happens as it sould, that worry stress and illness don’t always ruin your dreams and hopes. I am sick and I hate it. BUT….. one of my biggest life goals is falling into place. I (cross your fingers, knock on wood or whatever you need to to make sure it keeps looking awesome) am going to be baptized into the church I have beleived in a felt a member of for a long time on July 21, 2007. My brother Caleb has amazingly consented to be a part of this special moment and do the baptizing. (in case you don’t know me well this is for the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints)
The only thing to sadden me about this is that it won’t be my husband doing the ordanence and he won’t be able to be there. Not that he doesn’t want to…. I think he is as happy about this as I am but because work makes things very very hard. Time off is rare and it is something I am used to and have come to accept. I have always lived with a man in this buisness and know the demands it makes and the sacrafices it requires and I do them gladly because Joey loves his work. Anyway back to my baptism. So Caleb is going to preform the ordanences of my baptism. I am hoiping my brother-in-law Trevor and my Uncle Grover will stand up with Caleb for my confirmation, along with my assorted cousins and family holding the proper preisthood. Then because it is rare for me to be home and this is a very special day we are going to party, Miller Style (this means, for you non-family members, we get noisy, eat lots of food, play some great games and just have a blast!!). It is going to be a wonderful day full of love, laughter, and maybe some tears. (I am an emotional nut so you never know) I am nervous, almost as full of nerves as I was upon my wedding and the birth of our child. I get whoozey just thinking about the huge step I am taking. I also am so extremely blessed. I have a great ward. I think this ward was theone I needed to feel safe and happy enough to make this huge change complete in my life. The women of this ward have opened their arms and hearts to me. No other ward has ever made me feel so welcomed and wanted. Our releif society presidency are the most amazing group of ladies. I feel very included everytime I go to church. One of my missionaries finished his mission so he won’t be here to see me even finish retaking my lessons which is sad as he reminded me alot of Caleb. My other missionarie will finish my lessons but not see me come home baptized as he will finish his mission as well and be returning to russia. I am not going to let that stop me though. It has really been amazing. Whatever obstacle has jumped in my path we have overcome it. My sister-in-law Raven is behind the scenes making things happen and I could kiss her with the joy of it. She brings a whole lot of light to my life. My best friends Amanda and Hattie have let me cry, cheer, laugh and vent over this whole process. I know I have over a month to go and more road blocks may pop up. Because I have them I know I will not only face them but overcome them.
On a diffrent note, I called my Grandmother McDonald yesterday for our weekly chat. I ache for her and for those of us watching little peices of her slip away. We talked about Bug and her starting school in the fall about 4 times, each followed by a wistful “my how time flies!” I hate seeing her slip away but I also understand it. She lost her rock, her anchor to the world. I know if I lost Joey and had no children at home I would feel the same emptyness she does and we have only been together a 10th of the time she and Pops had together. I will of course keep praying for her and calling her because she happens to be one of my rocks and very much a center of my life.
Well off to do site work I have been putting off with this flu junk. Better get to it before I need to lay down again!
