So today was testimony meeting at church. For those non-mormonites that means people get up and share about their beliefs. So a woman got up and talked about prayers and how sometimes our prayers are answered in ways we didn’t want or expect but they end up being exactly what we needed. I realized this applied to my life in recent days. Right before Thanksgiving I was feeling very overwhelmed. I was writing a full length novel in a month, doing pages for work, taking care of my family and life. I love being busy but when I feel manic the busy starts to panic me. So I prayed for a way to get some much needed rest. So what happens? I get sick. Not a normal cold and achy sick but full on can’t swallow, can’t talk, can’t breath sick. I was drugged up. Husband is so worried he keeps me in bed. He even went grocery shopping for me, which he never does. So while it was not exactly what I had in mind when I prayed it sure got the point across.
As to pain. I hate seeing people I love in pain. A woman I adore was diagnosed with skin cancer. It was on her cheek. She is a gorgeous woman so getting it removed has her whole cheek inflamed and she is so self-conscious. I wanted to make it better. Even after chemo and all of that she went to church and held her head high and showed me true strength.
Another person I love is facing a very scary thing soon. I hate how stressed he is and how it affects everything he does. If I could go through all of this for him I would. I would do about anything to lift this burden for him, despite how scary it is. So he has filled my thoughts and prayers every moment of every day. His pain is my pain and I can’t wait till it is behind him.
When people I love hurt I hurt. Most never see it because I pull out my hidden strength to life them above whatever they are going through. It is on of the joys of my life to be able to be there for the people that mean so much to me.
Now to pissyness. I am wanting to kick a wall. For some reason Bug has this major whine lately. Over everything. It is like she can’t help but get that tone in her voice that sounds worse than nails on a chalk board. bleck.
Finally I am so blessed in my life to be surrounded by amazing people no matter what I am doing. It could be my family, my church friends, my online friends, or my soul sisters. All of them add to the completion of my spirit.
To the one woman who is facing her own stress right now – stop worrying about me and how I will handle things. You are amazing and will get through this. You can count on me. I will life you up if you need it, I will scream with you when the pressure is to much. I will dry your tears. Let me be there for you whenever the mood strikes and don’t put my moods or worrywart status deter you from coming to me. I love you.
